Uncertainty.

      I think this is a word that defines our lives as teenagers. I'll have periods of time where all I can think about is "Who am I?", "What do I really need in life to be happy?", "I thought I knew last month, but now i'm not so sure." Why are we so goddamn unstable? I feel like i'll just wake up one day and feel suddenly unenthusiastic about something I used to love. Last year, I felt like I figured everything out. I thought I knew what I wanted; I genuinely thought I had my shit together, once and for all. This cycle just happens over and over again. I'll have a day where I feel like I know exactly what I want, and what I need to do to get it. Next day? I'm completely lost and confused about what that is. I think stability is just a figment of our imaginations. It's impossible to be stable, when everything around us is so far from it. We're changing grades, we're changing friends, we're going places, we're losing people, we're meeting new ones, we're fighting, we're experiencing new things. High School(And being a teenager in general) is like a big circus, continuously creating new problems and stresses for us; even when we're not in it. While all of these new problems are being presented to us, we're just trying to catch our breath and figure out who we are.
 I just want something to me constant in my life. I'm tired of the merry-go-round of this. I think it's exhausting for all of us. I think part of it is that we're afraid to commit to something. Deep in our subconscious, I think making something definite in ourselves is almost impossible. We're exposed to so many ideas and experiences every day, how can we not change our minds 400 different times? We think we've figured out something, but then a new idea presents itself and we re-think what we want all over again. We spend so much of our time thinking and thinking to make sure we make the "right" decision, but I feel like the over-thinking is just making it harder. All of our thoughts just start crashing into each other and don't make sense anymore.
Don't let uncertainty rule your decisions anymore. Eliminate the uncertainty by clearing and calming your mind. You need to focus on one thing at a time, even when you have a history report due tomorrow, you have to study for that spanish quiz, your mom is nagging you about washing the dishes, two of your best friends are in a fight, and you want to upload pictures onto your facebook. You need to give the things that are truly important the undivided attention they need, or else you're just going to make everything difficult for yourself. I think the most important moment, is when you take the action based on all of the thinking you've been doing. When you finally decide that you want something to be stable in your life, then maybe it will fit just the way you wanted it to. You need to feel it in your gut. If it feels right to you; then it probably is.