Running away.

        Sometimes I wish I could have a clean slate. 
     How could I even feel the need for one, when i'm so young? Your life is never allowed to start over when you actually want it to. When I made a lot of changes in myself and how I thought about life more than a year ago, I wasn't just able to ditch my life and get to a new one. And that is the root of most of my problems. Actually, all of my problems.
             The more you try to get away from the things in your life, the more you realize that you can't. I mean this past Summer, I was in Europe, and barely felt un-attached from my negative feelings. I was 5,000+ miles away from my life, and I just couldn't feel what I was looking for. I guess I was expecting to feel a wave of calm and clarity, but you never know how you're going to feel until you're actually living that moment. It just doesn't matter where I am-I could be in Australia right now, and i'd probably feel relatively the same. Running away from the things that agonize you isn't a way to live. The only chance I ever have of being happy is conquering the negative things as best as I can, and moving on from them. The time frame that that process will take isn't exactly set in stone, but obviously I don't have the power to rush it.