I think being in school makes them 10 times worse. High school is probably the reason Monday's get such a bad rep, since everyone has to go through it(Besides drop-outs.) This is where the hatred of Mondays begins and breeds. Every week is like a reset button; we have to start all over again. The progress we made last week doesn't really matter, because we have a whole new set of challenges ahead of us for the next 5 days. It doesn't matter how many A's you got, how many times you stayed after school for a club or a sport-because here is your chance to completely fuck it up. The uncertainty is probably what we hate most about Mondays. Sunday night's suck because you know exactly where you're going the next day, while having almost no idea what the week is actually going to bring you. Will it be easy? Will it be grueling? Will you finally be tested on a subject in which you haven't been paying attention to since it began? Will a project be assigned to you that you have to finish by the end of the week? Will a teacher make you do something awkward like present in front of the class or partner up with a stranger? WHO KNOWS. No one can predict what this weeks going to bring to you. Who knew something as simple(Good one) as High school could be so unpredictable? This is what everyone else thinks, High school is simple. It's simple when you're not living it anymore, when you're detached from it. For those who actually have to live like this for 10 months out of their year, it's everything but.
I'm so tired of doing this, call it senioritis, call it whatever. I just can't believe that I have to do this for another year. Yes, this is only the third day of school, and I can't even imagine how i'm going to keep my head on straight for the rest of this year. I'm so tired of living like this; aren't we all? Every week is just a restart of counting down the days to the weekend, which may not even relax us if we have a particularly large work load. What the fuck is the point of the weekend if we can't relax? We're allowed to sleep late, and then do some more work and continue to stress out. Awesome. We just count down the days until we can feel closer to our normal selves than this sleep deprived, over-worked zombie, that walks through the hallways and pretends to be fine with how we're living. That's exactly what we are, zombies. We aren't living for ourselves, all we want is for the days to pass as quickly as possible, because we know that we won't be able to fully enjoy them no matter what we do. It's kind of sad when you think about it. I always try to stop myself from being "I can't wait for this year to be over.", because I don't want to just waste 10 months of my life being miserable(I already did that last year,haha). So maybe this year we should all try to stop ourselves from just waiting for the minutes to pass, so we can go home and sleep, eat, and grudgingly do our homework. We should be trying to pry out any time we have, to do the things that we ENJOY doing. Anything you enjoy doing, whether it be reading magazines, painting, playing with your dog, researching for your future, or being with your friends. Don't let these things slip away from you because you think the year is just automatically shot to hell. If you focus on the things that keep you sane, it'll be much easier to get through the year. I know we're here, and it sucks, and we want to smash our heads with our extremely heavy textbooks..But we always have time to try and grow as people. Don't tell me that you don't. There is no time limit for bettering yourself and making progress for you.
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