Who knew a movie could make me so contemplative?

      I just saw Eat,Pray,Love. It was less chick-flicky then I expected. It was actually very inspiring. I like when movies are based on true stories/books, it makes it easier for me to immerse myself in them. At the same time it made me feel like shit, because I wish I could do something like what Elizabeth Gilbert did. When I first heard about the book, I thought she was some pretentious bitch using wanting to find herself as an excuse for traveling the world.But i've realized that we're almost the same person, besides the 20 or so years she has on me. We both can't quiet our minds, we both feel unfullfilled in our lives(Except for the fact that I feel unfulfilled at a much younger age), and it's difficult for us to find the answer to what we actually want.
           I guess it's better that I realize I can't be happy living a normal, planned life now, as opposed to when i'm 38 and divorced. It doesn't make it any easier to live like this though. When my mind is in this state of constantly telling me how much it despises the life i'm living, and wants me to free myself of all of the obligations that are running and ruining me.
         Well, now i'm inspired to read the book. I'm sure it'll be even better than the movie, because books are usually better than the movies. Maybe that's what I need to do this year, engross myself in reading. Maybe I need to immerse myself in other peoples stories and experiences so I can learn something from them. It's easier than being immersed in my own life, honestly.