My last first day of school.

              Not as bad as I thought it was going to be. You probably witnessed the mental breakdown I had yesterday, and after feeling that terrible and expecting nothing but negativity from today, the amount of good luck I had made me feel a lot more optimistic. I have friends in every class(except journalism), my classes didn't intimidate or immediately stress me out(As they usually do), and the more it sunk in that I am actually a senior, the more I realized that this year is going to be very different from the rest. I got to hang out with my friends afterwards too, which is exactly what I needed. As me and my best friend Rob sat in the car, drinking frappuccinos and feeling high off of our positive hopes for the year, he said, "Can we make this the best year of our lives?". That question made me think. If only it were that easy, to say that you were going to have the best year of your life and it would actually happen. I do believe in being optimistic, and being able to change things for yourself, but I don't think were so in control of our lives that we can predict things like that. I think that we have the possibility to have a lot of "best years of our life", and that they are something more unexpected than planned. All I could say was that we should try to make this the best year we've ever had, and live it exactly the way senior year should be lived. So that's our resolution-I am giving every thing I have in me to make this a great year. My motto for this year is simply "I don't give a shit.", which sounds lazy and bitchy and whatever else, but it's the truth. I've given the past 3 years of myself to school, stressing and working my ass off so I can get myself into a good college. I think i've built up a good enough high school career to get myself where I need to be, and I need a fucking break. I'm focusing on finding the right college for me, and being happy. The end. So whether you are a freshman or a senior, you can still make this year an amazing one for yourself. Do your best in school, but don't sell your soul to it. Don't let it ruin you and your happiness. You know that there are more important things in your life that you could be focusing your emotions on. Do as much as you can, but don't stretch yourself too thinly. Join things that actually interest you, and with friends; it'll look good on your college application and will make you feel good. Don't be lazy either, if you have to be here, you should be doing your best to make the most of it. If you do what you need to, you will have a great amount of opportunities to do what you want when you get out of here. Not like i'm the guru of High School (Pretty far from it), but this is the advice I can give you from my experience.
            Now I am going to get some well-needed rest, I barely slept at all last night. Hope everyone had a great day, and if not; you can make it better. Tomorrow holds a lot more opportunity for good than you think.